This is a testimony I posted on facebook. enjoy
I HOPE MANY CHRISTIANS READ THIS. Somethings I felt I needed to share. Back in 2012, I was
baptized in the Holy Ghost. I experienced laughter and drunkeness in the Spirit. I remember it like
it was yesterday. It was the greatest experience I’ve ever had. It was earlier that year that God
started to do a lot of work on me. So when I had that experience, I was so greatful. I was so full of
joy and peace. Something I hadn’t felt for such a while.
Time went by. I became more involved with church. I almost never missed a service. But when I did,
I felt bad. I invited people often. I always tithed. I started a little personal ministry and taught
inside my home and online. I was always quick to give testimonies about things God did for me. I began praying more often. And all I could think about was the Lord and how to serve Him. I
thought I had truly given Him my all. But I noticed that I was feeling the Holy Spirit less and less
during my praise and worship at church. I began to wonder why.
About a month ago, I left the church that I had served in for almost 2 1/2 years. It was a tough
decision. But I knew God was calling me out. And although I do miss my old church family, I know
this was for the best. So I began to quickly find a new church home. I went to a couple of churches.
Then some friends invited me to come to their church. The PCG. I love it there!
My first night was on a Wednesday night. I enjoyed it. So I went back Sunday morning and night.
That night was also on the day of the celebration of Pentecost for this year. It was awesome. I saw
many people receive the baptism of the Holy Ghost. It reminded me of when I first received it. It brought back so many memories of older times. It made me happy, yet a little sad at the same time.
This past week, we had revival. On Tuesday, I had bad stomach cramps. I considered asking for
prayer and healing. But God took care of it during our first round of praise and worship that night. I
was very happy. Later, someone (that I never would have expected) came up to me and gave me a
word from God. Although I can’t say what I was told here online or the general public, I will just tell
you that God gave me a head’s up of something that was about to happen. And He was letting me know to rely on what He put in my heart. Not what a certain person had to say. Later that night,
someone (and I will not tell who out of respect, but if you only knew who, you all would be
SHOCKED) came up to me and tried to present thoughts to me that were not of God. I chose not to
believe this person, but to believe what God had showed me in the past. And afterwards, I realized
that God had my back.
The next day, I thought about what had happened. And I began to realize something. See... I
believed in God. I praised Him. I worshiped Him. I’ve given testimonies for things He has done for
me. And I thought I had really given Him my whole heart. But I finally realized... I had not 100%
completely TRUSTED Him. Because there were so many times that I felt like He didn’t have my back.
So many times I thought, “Hey, I’m doing the right thing. I stood up against people who have done
wrong things in a respectful way. I stood up for those people when no one else did. Where are you
at? Why aren’t you backing me up?” But there was a lesson I learned last month. And this month, I
was tested to see if I FINALLY got it. The test was simple. It was to see if I was finally going to believe
in what he shows or tells me and let Him deal with things when they are going wrong. Or if I was
going to try to deal with things myself. And I finally passed.
Some of you may say: “Well, that’s basic fundamentals of Christianity. To trust in God.” And you’re right! And I knew that. But so many times I would try to stand up for what was right when I really
should have been praying for what was right. Then, I did this thing where I would pray, then turn
right around and try to fix something. Then, I did this super crazy thing where I would pray about
something, wait a while.... and then try to fix something if a change wasn’t made right away. All
because I’m tired of seeing others hurt. And if anybody knows me well, you know that there are so
many times in life where I’ve been done wrong by people and I would just let the run over me. But
if it’s somebody else that is done wrong, THAT’S when I’m willing to take a stand. In other words, I’m
the type of person that I am more willing to stand up for others than I am for myself. I hate seeing
innocent people hurt. But I’ve finally let go and realized that: yes, I should pray; yes, I should bind
and loose; but then I should step back and watch God work.
The next night of revival, I talked to God during praise and worship. I told Him that I finally
understood. That I truly felt that He had my back. And that I wanted Him to finally have that last
little bit of my heart. The part of the heart that trusts. Finally, I felt the Holy Spirit move in ways I
haven’t in such a long time. I enjoyed praising my Lord that night. It was awesome.
On the third night of revival, a song that I now hold dear to my heart was played. It’s called, “So You
Would Know.” Its lyrics express different ways that God shows a person how much He loves them.
During that song, God tugged on my heart. He reminded me just how much He’s gotten me through
over the years. I broke into tears a few times. My friend Melissa kept looking over at me. Lol. I bet I
looked funny with my face all scrunched up like a kid crying.
In my mind, I questioned why God would use a song about love when the issue was about trust.
And right then He put the answer in my heart. I was reminded of something I say all the time about
couples and relationships: “You can’t love somebody with your whole heart if you don’t trust them.
If you can’t trust someone, how can you be in a relationship with them. That’s not love.” And it all
made sense. So now that the trust is there, I really can have a greater love for God and a better
relationship as well.
But anyway, I say all of that to simply ask this: Do you as a Christian trust God with all of your heart?
Do you really? Do you put all things in His hands? Or do you get impatient and try to always take
matters into your own hands? Do you find yourself trying to fight everyone else’s battles for them?
Or do you stay in prayer about it and leave things to the Lord? Do you really love God with your
whole heart or just part of it? Just something to ponder on.
Finally, I wanted to say thanks to God for this breakthrough in our relationship during this revival.
And thanks to the amazing church for allowing the Lord to move in a mighty way.
Oh, and one more thing... For those of you who don’t really know me and thought I was the
TEENAGER who was failing to give their life over to Christ Tuesday night... I’m 26 years old. Lol. I
look very young for my age. Looks can be deceiving. And while I’m on that subject... I understand
that my looks (mohawk, tattoos, piercings, dressing like a guy) can be a bit “radical” and different.
But I assure you that does not mean I don’t know Jesus. He is definitely my friend. So don’t worry,
I’m not offended. Lol. It’s cool. It happens. :)
So again, I thanks you guys for the awesome time. See ya!
baptized in the Holy Ghost. I experienced laughter and drunkeness in the Spirit. I remember it like
it was yesterday. It was the greatest experience I’ve ever had. It was earlier that year that God
started to do a lot of work on me. So when I had that experience, I was so greatful. I was so full of
joy and peace. Something I hadn’t felt for such a while.
Time went by. I became more involved with church. I almost never missed a service. But when I did,
I felt bad. I invited people often. I always tithed. I started a little personal ministry and taught
inside my home and online. I was always quick to give testimonies about things God did for me. I began praying more often. And all I could think about was the Lord and how to serve Him. I
thought I had truly given Him my all. But I noticed that I was feeling the Holy Spirit less and less
during my praise and worship at church. I began to wonder why.
About a month ago, I left the church that I had served in for almost 2 1/2 years. It was a tough
decision. But I knew God was calling me out. And although I do miss my old church family, I know
this was for the best. So I began to quickly find a new church home. I went to a couple of churches.
Then some friends invited me to come to their church. The PCG. I love it there!
My first night was on a Wednesday night. I enjoyed it. So I went back Sunday morning and night.
That night was also on the day of the celebration of Pentecost for this year. It was awesome. I saw
many people receive the baptism of the Holy Ghost. It reminded me of when I first received it. It brought back so many memories of older times. It made me happy, yet a little sad at the same time.
This past week, we had revival. On Tuesday, I had bad stomach cramps. I considered asking for
prayer and healing. But God took care of it during our first round of praise and worship that night. I
was very happy. Later, someone (that I never would have expected) came up to me and gave me a
word from God. Although I can’t say what I was told here online or the general public, I will just tell
you that God gave me a head’s up of something that was about to happen. And He was letting me know to rely on what He put in my heart. Not what a certain person had to say. Later that night,
someone (and I will not tell who out of respect, but if you only knew who, you all would be
SHOCKED) came up to me and tried to present thoughts to me that were not of God. I chose not to
believe this person, but to believe what God had showed me in the past. And afterwards, I realized
that God had my back.
The next day, I thought about what had happened. And I began to realize something. See... I
believed in God. I praised Him. I worshiped Him. I’ve given testimonies for things He has done for
me. And I thought I had really given Him my whole heart. But I finally realized... I had not 100%
completely TRUSTED Him. Because there were so many times that I felt like He didn’t have my back.
So many times I thought, “Hey, I’m doing the right thing. I stood up against people who have done
wrong things in a respectful way. I stood up for those people when no one else did. Where are you
at? Why aren’t you backing me up?” But there was a lesson I learned last month. And this month, I
was tested to see if I FINALLY got it. The test was simple. It was to see if I was finally going to believe
in what he shows or tells me and let Him deal with things when they are going wrong. Or if I was
going to try to deal with things myself. And I finally passed.
Some of you may say: “Well, that’s basic fundamentals of Christianity. To trust in God.” And you’re right! And I knew that. But so many times I would try to stand up for what was right when I really
should have been praying for what was right. Then, I did this thing where I would pray, then turn
right around and try to fix something. Then, I did this super crazy thing where I would pray about
something, wait a while.... and then try to fix something if a change wasn’t made right away. All
because I’m tired of seeing others hurt. And if anybody knows me well, you know that there are so
many times in life where I’ve been done wrong by people and I would just let the run over me. But
if it’s somebody else that is done wrong, THAT’S when I’m willing to take a stand. In other words, I’m
the type of person that I am more willing to stand up for others than I am for myself. I hate seeing
innocent people hurt. But I’ve finally let go and realized that: yes, I should pray; yes, I should bind
and loose; but then I should step back and watch God work.
The next night of revival, I talked to God during praise and worship. I told Him that I finally
understood. That I truly felt that He had my back. And that I wanted Him to finally have that last
little bit of my heart. The part of the heart that trusts. Finally, I felt the Holy Spirit move in ways I
haven’t in such a long time. I enjoyed praising my Lord that night. It was awesome.
On the third night of revival, a song that I now hold dear to my heart was played. It’s called, “So You
Would Know.” Its lyrics express different ways that God shows a person how much He loves them.
During that song, God tugged on my heart. He reminded me just how much He’s gotten me through
over the years. I broke into tears a few times. My friend Melissa kept looking over at me. Lol. I bet I
looked funny with my face all scrunched up like a kid crying.
In my mind, I questioned why God would use a song about love when the issue was about trust.
And right then He put the answer in my heart. I was reminded of something I say all the time about
couples and relationships: “You can’t love somebody with your whole heart if you don’t trust them.
If you can’t trust someone, how can you be in a relationship with them. That’s not love.” And it all
made sense. So now that the trust is there, I really can have a greater love for God and a better
relationship as well.
But anyway, I say all of that to simply ask this: Do you as a Christian trust God with all of your heart?
Do you really? Do you put all things in His hands? Or do you get impatient and try to always take
matters into your own hands? Do you find yourself trying to fight everyone else’s battles for them?
Or do you stay in prayer about it and leave things to the Lord? Do you really love God with your
whole heart or just part of it? Just something to ponder on.
Finally, I wanted to say thanks to God for this breakthrough in our relationship during this revival.
And thanks to the amazing church for allowing the Lord to move in a mighty way.
Oh, and one more thing... For those of you who don’t really know me and thought I was the
TEENAGER who was failing to give their life over to Christ Tuesday night... I’m 26 years old. Lol. I
look very young for my age. Looks can be deceiving. And while I’m on that subject... I understand
that my looks (mohawk, tattoos, piercings, dressing like a guy) can be a bit “radical” and different.
But I assure you that does not mean I don’t know Jesus. He is definitely my friend. So don’t worry,
I’m not offended. Lol. It’s cool. It happens. :)
So again, I thanks you guys for the awesome time. See ya!